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The Double-Minded Man

If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him. But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. For let not that man suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways. –James 1:5-8

I have been on a search lately striving for a stronger faith, but the problem is faith cannot be forced.  We cannot wake up one day and say, “today I have strong faith.”  It’s not so much a choice I’ve found but a gift from God that usually comes as the outcome of my experiences.  Of course there are those that say to be weary of basing your faith all on experiences, but if we can’t experience God then what is the Bible about?  It is an entire book of experiences.  We believers long for these experiences—these little tastes of heaven.  Just a brush of God’s fingers across my back can rejuvenate me and fill me up to be ready to face to the world.

The problem is when I go through these spiritual dry spells, lacking experiences, the doubting and “big questions” start to take me over.  My brain flips on it’s God given, instinctual philosophical thinking.  I begin to analyze everything and postmodernism begins to eat at my faith.   “One’s perception of truth is all subjective” they say…   Well, by definition there can only be one truth to our existence and every person by nature has to have a worldview on the way they perceive life.  I suppose postmodernism is just being honest with ourselves, admitting that we can never be absolutely sure that our worldview is correct.    Whatever our worldview is—whether theism or atheism, creationism or evolution, Buddhist or nihilist—we all place a certain amount of faith into our perception of truth.

I have felt quite unstable lately.  I have become “the double-minded man.”  Christianity teaches honesty but when I am honest with myself about my doubts I have trouble conforming all my beliefs to Western Christianity.  I have prayed to God to help me through it.  I have cried out to hear back from Him but I have not been getting anything in reply.  I wish I could turn off my mind and just enjoy the simple things of life but I have become obsessed with the unseen.  Socrates said “the unexamined life is not worth living” but I’m not so sure I agree with him.  I think I would side more with whoever first said, “Ignorance is bliss.” When I was a child I didn’t think so philosophically and I just enjoyed things for what they were.   Perhaps that ‘s what Jesus meant when he said “Assuredly, I say to you, unless you are converted and become as little children, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven.”  By striving to find meaning in life do we completely miss it?

The Mystery of God

For the wisdom of this world is foolishness with God. For it is written, “He catches the wise in their own craftiness”; and again, “The Lord knows the thoughts of the wise, that they are futile.” -1 Corinthians 3:19-20

Belief in God does not mean I think I know it all.  Belief in God is admitting I don’t know it all and accepting that there is more than what we can physically see.  Life is temporary.  Our reality is temporary.  We will all wither away and pass from this reality in the blink of an eye.  So is our existence all pure luck and chance?  Simply because there are seemingly endless galaxies, we happened to end up here on this planet that has all the perfect details worked out for life to exist?  Wow, we are pretty lucky—if there’s any such thing as luck.  But scientists don’t believe in luck, they believe in cause and effect.  So what is our cause? 

Is death the end?  Death is all we have to look forward to?  As we all had a beginning we have an end too? If that’s the case then what would be the point of any of it?  There wouldn’t be a point. If we simply exist with no cause then why is there so much beauty?  Why is there love?  Why is there connection?  Why are there morals?  Why are there contrasts like good and evil, night and day, light and darkness?  Why do we exist if we simply die and become nothing again?  If we end as nothing wouldn’t that counter act our existence at all, making our own reality questionable?  This brings up the questions like “are we even here?”  Well the answer is yes, we are here.  

In my search for truth I surrendered my life to a creator, a higher being that we call God.  Through this process and seeking to know this being I have had many deep spiritual experiences.  Experiences that let me know I am not alone.  These experiences are my proof, they are all I need for peace.  I know I am watched over and even more importantly I know I am loved.  It was not the unanswered questions that led me to God but the power of His Spirit that drew me in.  It wasn’t that through a debate I came to the conclusion that there must be a God, but it was through the supernatural power of things I’ve experienced and seen that I’ve come to have faith.  

“Your faith should not be in the wisdom of men but in the power of God.” -1 Corinthians 2:5 

The connection I have encountered with God cannot be explained.  It’s something you have to experience yourself.  The signs of God are all around us.  Look up at the beauty in the sky or look at the miracle of a new born life.  Know that He is right there just waiting for you to turn to Him.  He is right in front of all of us knocking at the door to our hearts.  

Jesus said “behold I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door I will come in to him.” –Rev 3:20 

With all the beauty and love in the world I have mentioned there is obviously a dark side to it.  Very clearly in our world there is evil, hate, greed, lust, malice, deceit, envy and all kinds of darkness.  Many humans are clearly corrupt.  There is good and evil—this does not need to be argued—and we all have both in us.  The Bible calls this dark side in us sin.  Our sinful nature draws us to be selfish though we know it is wrong.  Our sinful nature builds our pride and tells us that we are the most important thing in the universe, though again we know this to be wrong.  Our sinful nature tells us we should go after the lusts of the flesh and pursue our own greed and desire for money.  Our sinful nature tells us to do a lot of things, but the point is there’s something else in us that tells us this behavior is wrong.  This is our God given gift of a conscience that I believe is meant to guide us to God.  Through our conscience we sense that there is darkness in us.  Only light can bring out this darkness.  This is why we need a savior.  We need help to change from our sinful ways and turn to light.  This help can be found through Christ.

“For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.”  -John 3:16 

Christ bore the sin of the world on the cross so that we might be saved.  He took on the darkness of the world and overcame it!  On the cross He said “it is finished.”  This was God’s plan all along and through His love He wants to know you, help you and walk with you through life, bringing you a peace that is beyond understanding. 

“For He made Him who knew no sin to be sin for us, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.” –2 Corinthians 5:21 

If you feel lost in life, there is hope.  If you feel like you are in bondage, there is freedom.  If you feel you are unloved, you are wrong.  Give God a chance for He loves you more than you could ever understand.  

For You formed my inward parts;
You covered me in my mother’s womb.
I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.

-Psalm 139:13-14 

I pray that you would have an encounter with our Creator and His love for you.  I pray that you would soften your heart to hear the Lord’s call and turn your life to the light of the world—Jesus Christ! 

We speak the wisdom of God in a mystery, the hidden wisdom which God ordained before the ages for our glory, which none of the rulers of this age knew; for had they known, they would not have crucified the Lord of glory. 

But as it is written:

“Eye has not seen, nor ear heard,
Nor have entered into the heart of man
The things which God has prepared for those who love Him.” 
-1 Corinthians 2:7-9

It’s not a phase, it’s who I am!

“It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.” –E. E. Cummings

We constantly hear people talking about “finding themselves.”  What do they mean by this?  By claiming that they want to find themselves I would say that they are first admitting they are lost.  If they are lost then what do they expect to find and how would you search for it?  With me it’s very simple.  I once was lost but now am found.  It wasn’t that I found God but more that I finally answered His call.  It wasn’t that I set out on this great search to find myself but more that I finally surrendered to what my heart already knew to be truth.  My decision to follow Christ is not a phase.  This is not something I will grow out of.  This is who I am.  This is what completes me.  This is what I was born to be.  I am a child of God. 

I was called by the Lord many years ago when I was a teenager.  I felt His presence and got to know Him some, but with growing up I quickly fell away from the faith and pursued selfish interests.  I now look back and realize that pursuing “dreams” was not who I was.  Pursuing fame, success and money was not who I was—it was the farthest from it actually.  Life had its ups and downs but even in the ups I never felt fulfilled.  There was a longing in me for more.  My heart knew there was more but my mind refused to accept God because of the secular view the world had instilled on me. 

“Let no one deceive himself. If anyone among you seems to be wise in this age, let him become a fool that he may become wise. For the wisdom of this world is foolish-ness with God. For it is written, ‘He catches the wise in their own craftiness’ and again, ‘The Lord knows the thoughts of the wise and they are futile.”  (1 Corinthians 3:18-20)

“But I fear, lest somehow, as the serpent deceived Eve by his craftiness, so your minds may be corrupted from the simplicity that is in Christ.” (2 Corinthians 11:3)

Scientific theories like The Big Bang and Darwinism do not explain the miracle of our existence at all.  Belief in God does.  God has revealed Himself to me through His presence.  Jesus said “Behold I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him…” Jesus Christ is Lord and if you are courageous enough to grow up and become who you really are then take a step of faith!  Through faith God will reveal Himself.  Martin Luther King Jr. said, “Take the first step in faith. You don’t have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step.”  Jesus said, “Seek and you will find.”

I know there are some reading this who the Lord has called but they have decided—like myself in earlier life—to pursue other interests.  Let me save you some searching time and tell you this: Worldly interests will not bring you peace.  The world will not bring you your heart’s desires.  Your heart has heard the Lord and the Lord is at the door patiently waiting for you to answer.  So answer it and come home!  There’s no need to wander in the hills by yourself anymore.  Just come home.   Stop listening to man and listen to God.   This is who you are.

“Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart.” (Psalm 37:3-4)

-I Want To Believe In God [dot com]

Who Really Knows?

Ever since I was a young boy I have gazed up at the stars time and time again with amazement. The site of a clear sky at night is so beautiful. It is something I don’t think any human could live their life without recognizing. With technology we have been able to learn more about the universe and the stars. We learn how big the universe is and it leaves us feeling quite small in comparison. We learn of millions of stars, other planets and galaxies. From what we know we could conclude that the universe is endless right? How could it have an end? Would the stars just stop somewhere and become nothingness? It’s very easy to have your breath taken away by what we know and even more by what we don’t know about the universe. People are often stopped in their tracks while gazing at the sky and say: “Wow, who knows?” We are but a speck in the universe right? Or are we more?

“The heavens proclaim the glory of God. The Skies display his craftsmanship. Day after day they continue to speak; night after night they make him known. They speak without a sound or word; their voice is never heard. Yet their message has gone throughout the earth, and their words to all the world…” (Psalm 19:1-4)

The book of Genesis tells us the earth was created three days prior to the sun, moon and stars. The stars were created to provide the earth a calendar system (Gen1:14) and perhaps even more importantly to reflect the glory of God to man (Psalm 19, Rom1:20). When I look at the stars and reflect on how big our universe is I think wow that’s God! Think about it; what could reflect an infinite, all powerful being like God more than a limitless, never ending universe? God would never limit the universe because He himself is limitless. The more we study the universe the more we realize how many little precise circumstances had to come together to make life possible. The stars, the universe and the complexity of life in itself make me wonder how anyone could ever say we are here by mere chance. How can someone believe that all this just popped into existence with no cause? Even when I was not a Christian I could never honestly call myself an atheist because of this reason. I cannot accept the belief that we are an accident. Life is far too complex and perfectly engineered to have just happened.

When people look up in the stars and say “there’s no way we are alone” they’re right! We’re not alone. We are with God and every time we look at the sky, or mountains, or a new born baby we are seeing the glory of His creation. Watch the video below and then tell me it’s all an accident.

We’re not an accident. We are not alone. Who really knows? God knows and He speaks. The Lord says:

“Who is this that questions my wisdom
with such ignorant words?
Brace yourself like a man,
because I have some questions for you,
and you must answer them.

“Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth?
Tell me, if you know so much.
Who determined its dimensions
and stretched out the surveying line?
What supports its foundations,
and who laid its cornerstone
as the morning stars sang together
and all the angels shouted for joy?

“Who kept the sea inside its boundaries
as it burst from the womb,
and as I clothed it with clouds
and wrapped it in thick darkness?
For I locked it behind barred gates,
limiting its shores.
I said, ‘This far and no farther will you come.
Here your proud waves must stop!’

“Have you ever commanded the morning to appear
and caused the dawn to rise in the east?
Have you made daylight spread to the ends of the earth,
to bring an end to the night’s wickedness?
As the light approaches,
the earth takes shape like clay pressed beneath a seal;
it is robed in brilliant colors.
The light disturbs the wicked
and stops the arm that is raised in violence.

“Have you explored the springs from which the seas come?
Have you explored their depths?
Do you know where the gates of death are located?
Have you seen the gates of utter gloom?
Do you realize the extent of the earth?
Tell me about it if you know!

(Job 38:2-18)

I’ll be the first to admit I do not have all the answers. There are a lot of things we don’t know or understand but God does! So many men act like we know it all just because we’ve studied science. The study of the creation does not disprove the creator.

“It is better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in man.” (Psalm 118:8)

-I Want To Believe In God [dot com]

(to read more on why we can trust the Bible to be God’s word from a scientific standpoint read my blog: “Is The Bible The First Science Book” https://iwanttobelieveingod.com/2011/11/25/is-the-bible-the-first-science-book/)

Is The Bible The First Science Book?

We live in an age where so many people believe science disproves the existence of God. I don’t see how this is true at all. By studying science we learn more about how life works but I don’t see this in any way as evidence against God. Just like knowing the sun is a huge ball of burning gas does not explain how it ended up at the exact right location to light, warm and energize the earth. Life is so complex and the more we learn from science the more we realize how everything actually has a purpose and that the universe and everything on the earth live in this intricate, precise harmony. DNA and mathematics are written code that shows there must be an author. For people to believe that the entire existence of life just happened by mere chance, that we are here by accident and that something came out of nothing is to me the most illogical and unscientific explanation anyone could ever have. The theory of the big bang is interesting but it can never solve the mystery of something coming from nothing. No matter how much matter, energy and time there is life will never just happen. Science has proved that the earth is aging and from this we can say that it at some point had a beginning and at some point it will have an end. Science has also proven that there is much more to life or reality than what we can physically see making the materialistic view somewhat foolish in my opinion. To not believe in something because you cannot see it is not a good reason at all. Today I just wanted to list some really interesting scientific facts that the Bible was the first to record before any science book (and often against what was popular belief at the time) showing evidence that the Bible did have divine inspiration when written.

The Bible was the first book to ever state that the stars could not be counted. In Genesis 22:17 the Bible compares the number of stars to the number of grains of sand on the sea shore which can obviously not be counted. At the time of being written men actually believed you could count the stars and many men continued to think this up until the invention of the telescope in the 17th century.

The Bible was the first book to ever state that the earth is round. Isaiah 40:22 says “It is He who sits above the circle of the earth.” Even when men thought the earth was flat thousands of years before it was proven to be round the Bible has stated that it was.

The Bible was the first book to say the earth was free floating. Job 26:7 says “He hangs the earth on nothing.” Other religions have stated that the earth is on the back of an elephant or a turtle. The Bible had it right all along.

The Bible states in Gen 2:7 that “God formed man of the dust of the ground.” The 59 elements found in the human body are all found on the earths crust. For more detailed info: http://esoriano.wordpress.com/2007/05/25/from-dust-to-man-a-scientific-proof/

The Bible says God created woman from man’s rib and the rib is the only bone in the body that can completely regenerate. Genesis 2:21-23 states “And the Lord God caused a deep sleep to fall on Adam, and he slept; and He took one of his ribs, and closed up the flesh in its place. Then the rib which the Lord God had taken from man He made into a woman.” It has been proven that the rib is the only bone in the body that when surgically removed will completely regenerate itself. This makes sense that God would make woman from the rib. For more detailed info: http://www.answersingenesis.org/articles/aid/v4/n1/amazing-regenerating-rib

The Bible reports of a massive flood wiping out most of the human race about 5000 years ago. If we trace the population growth rate of humans back mathematically it comes to a halt at about 5000 years ago. This evidence completely supports the incident in Genesis of a massive flood that wiped out the population of the earth and left humans to start the reproductive process over. For more detailed info: http://radaractive.blogspot.com/2011/11/flawed-darwinist-dating-methods-exposed.html

These are just a few of the many cases where the Bible has had scientific accurate statements that were not proven true until many years later. For a longer detailed list visit: http://www.thejesuscommandment.com/proof.html

From what I’ve pointed out here you could say: ok I get that there is substantial evidence for the Bible to be accurate but if there is a God then where did God come from? I will try to explain this the best I can. God is infinite. The definition of infinite is: extending indefinitely, endless, immeasurable, inconceivably great, subject to no limitation or external determination, extending beyond, lying beyond, being greater than any pre-assigned finite value. God is timeless “who was and is and is to come” (Rev 1:8). He created time and hence lives outside of our world of cause and effect. We will never fully understand this until we die and pass into the spirit world being no longer bound by time. I know this can be very hard to understand but I see the explanation of an infinite creator as a much more logical explanation than to believe everything exists without purpose and by mere chance. Please refer to my blog “Why Even Try To Understand God” for more info on humans trying to intellectually explain God: https://iwanttobelieveingod.com/2011/11/19/why-even-try-to-understand-god/

To believe against all odds that life is an accident is to me an unacceptable answer and actually quite depressing. I believe we all feel within our hearts that there is more to us than just life and death. I do not believe it’s just blackness and nothingness as if we never existed when we die. We feel it within ourselves that there is more to us than our flesh. There’s something deep inside that cannot just die and go away forever. With this realization we are also born with a longing to figure out our purpose. I believe this is the longing God puts in our hearts to seek Him.

Until the end of the world I’m sure there is always going to be arguments from both sides of the theist and the atheist (existence and non-existence of God). I am in no way trying to start an argument or debate here. I just wanted to share some facts about the Bible that I find very interesting that you may not have heard before. It’s up to you to decide what you believe. I just urge you to weigh out the evidence from both sides before immediately siding with the secular/evolutionist side we are often taught in schools. Here’s a bit of truth for you—not everything you learn in school is factual. Of course not everything you read on the internet is fact either. So do your research people and come up with your own honest conclusions. One thing I’m sure everyone can agree on is that we have a choice to decide what we believe. I believe this is the free will God has given us to be for Him or against Him. It’s your choice.

To me these interesting facts about the Bible strengthen my faith but are in no way the root to my faith. The root of my faith resides in the Holy Spirit. I have felt the Spirit of God and personally experienced His love and goodness. Romans 8:16 says “The Spirit Himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God.” To me this is all the evidence I will ever need. The Holy Spirit is obviously not something I can show you through a blog but something you have to experience yourself. You could think of the Holy Spirit as God’s energy covering the entire earth. It’s like a wave of electricity that flows around desperately wanting to ground itself through man. It’s how we can spiritually connect to God. This electricity or Spirit wants into each man but we must first invite it, or in a sense remove our rubber flesh that’s blocking it from coming in. If this is something you are interested in experiencing yourself then the first step is simply prayer. Prayer is our direct line of communication with God, Jesus and The Holy Spirit. If you sincerely invite the Holy Spirit of God into your heart through prayer then I promise you amazing things will happen. Again it’s your choice.

In Matthew 7:7-8 Jesus said: “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.” This is a promise from God that if we look for Him we will find Him. The key part is “ask”, “seek” and “knock”. It does not say “tell”, “force” and “push” because God gives us ultimate free will to seek Him or to choose not to. I myself have chosen to seek and I have found faith.

“I pray that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man, that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.” (Ephesians 3:16-19)

“For you have rescued me from death; you have kept my feet from slipping. So now I can walk in your presence, O God, in your life-giving light.” (Psalm 56:13)

-I Want To Believe In God [dot com]